Well where to start. I don't know how to blog actually but I kinda think it has to do with just telling what going on in my life kinda like seeing a therapist....without having to pay...and without anyone actually having an real training. So maybe I'll just start with introducing myself a bit. Well here goes, I am a 38 year old man, a bit overweight, very self confident, very outspoken, will fight to the death for myself or my friends and I will always stand up for what I believe is right, I seem to have this bad habit of arguing with people, trying to get others to see my point of view because my point of view is the right one (in my mind) I love a good debate, argument whatever you want to call it so responses will be talked about and I will always try to make anyone who responds to me see my point of view. I grew up in New Brunswick Canada and moved out west to Alberta in 1994, met a woman shortly after that that didn't quite have the same ideals and goals in life that I did. I married her in 1998 and was married until 2006. It was I that asked for the divorce due to facts that I could not overcome. I moved away and met someone else. I have not ever really be able to hold down a job for any longer then 2 years, I either quit or got fired for being stupid. I have gone to school and become a massage therapist and while I was in school I started working on an ambulance and was trained as an EMR (Emergency Medical Responder) I have since then graduated from Massage therapy school and I am now in school again to become an EMT (Emergency Medical Techinition). My brain is fried, I am lost on the inside and have so many things going through my head at any one point in time that I don't know where to go. I am sitting in my room at school right now and just thinking about what I want to do for the rest of my life. I have seen so much in my life that I beleive I have stopped processing everything and just started absorbing it instead. I crave helping people, making them feel good. Not at the expense of my own good feeling because I understand their feelings and problems are theirs not mine. I ask myself every day how can I help somoene if I myself cannot feel good about myself...but when the occasion arrives that I see that someone needs help I forget everything about what is going on in my life and work on making them feel better.
Ok I am probably off on a tangent here and not making any sense, maybe tomorrow I will be able to focus in more on what I am trying to say, maybe I should break down different parts of my life so that some of you may understand where I am coming from, maybe who I am more...oh well, if anyone actually reads this feel free to comment I guess I am doing this looking for feedback positive or negative, everyone is always afraid to tell me the truth to my face in real life hopefully it won't be the same on here.
